“My husband and I have been married for almost 4 years. My problem is that I have always had a really hard time sticking up for myself and when we get in arguments he tends to say things that really hurt my feelings. I have never had a lot of confidence in myself and when he says hurtful things it brings me down more. I have always had a hard time with holding things in since I grew up in a family that didn’t really talk about our feelings we always just kind of held things in. I need some advice on how to learn to stick up for myself so that I can feel more confident in myself?”Â Â
IdentifyÂ Your Feelings, Thoughts, Needs
Before you can get comfortable expressing your inner experience with your husband, it’s important to get acquainted with your own inner life.Â Ask yourself daily, “How am I feeling?”, “What am I thinking?”Â & “What am I needing from my husband?” A helpful place to start in identifying your emotions is ask yourself which one of these 4 feeling words describes what’s going on inside:
happyÂ Â Â Â madÂ Â Â Â Â sadÂ Â Â Â Â scaredÂ
Knowing how you feel, what you think is the first step to developing the confidence to share the deeper parts of you with your husband.
Explore Family Patterns
Great job recognizing the impact of your family on your emotional tendency to hold things inÂ and challenging yourself to express when it doesn’t come naturally to you. Since you didn’t learn the skills to express emotions and thoughts it may take some time to get comfortable sharing your inner experiences with your husband. Often we apply our family of origin relationship rules to our current relationships, whether or not they actually apply to the current situation. Ask yourself the following questions:
“How did my family manage intense emotion?”
“How does my reluctance to express myself make sense, given my life experience?”
“What am I afraid will happen if I speak up now, in my marriage?”
Revisit the Hurt
Once you’ve identified what’s going on inside ofÂ you, during a calm time sit down with your husband and revisit a timeÂ whenÂ he has said something that hurt you. This is notÂ an opportunity to prove him wrong, but to share your feelings with him when neither of you are emotionally escalated.Â You might want to say something like, “Remember last week when we were talking about the money? I know we were both upset. I wanted to tell you that I felt hurt when you said that I my poor budegeting isÂ the reason we are in debt.Â Can we talk more about that? I need you to hear how hurt I was and I want to understand better where you are coming from.”Â
TrustÂ Husband’s Positive Intent
Assuming your husband is a nice guy,Â he may be unintentionallyÂ sayingÂ hurtfulÂ things to try andÂ get ANY kind of emotional response from you to prove that you are stillÂ invested inÂ marriageÂ and that you still care about him. His jabs may be a way of trying to reach the deeper parts of you and to connect with you when you start to shut down emotionally.Â If you have a pretty good relationship overall, it’s best to assume the best, instead of the worst, aboutÂ your spouse’s intentions, even if it doesn’t appear that way on the surface. Hold on to his positive intent to help you gain even more courage to share more of yourself with him.
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